Hey Did I Mention I Love You

Jack Barakat sat in his bedroom playing his guitar, his feet tangled up in the covers. His fingers strummed a tune he was slowly figuring out, as what he had of the song came to a soft gently close jack sighed and mumbled something to him self, looking around the his messy room he stands up. Running his hands through his black and blonde hair which swoops over one of his eyes, he looked at himself in the mirror. Alex and the guys were coming over later and he couldn't help but worry about what Alex would think of him if he looked like crap. Lately he'd been…self conscious about being around Alex, he'd also caught himself staring at Alex's ass a few times. As Jack starred at himself in the mirror he asked himself for about the fifth time that day Am I…I can't be… Jack sighed and thought of Alex Oh fuck I am…I'm gay…and I think…I'm in love with my best-friend…. This couldn't be happening to Jack, No he was straight. He had to be…but the thing was, he wasn't, he'd never liked a girl like that or even looked at a girl the way he looked at Alex. He was gay and he was going to have to tell Zack, Ryan and Alex. Fuck.


A nock at the door shattered Jacks panic, Jack whipped around and bolted down stairs, his FTSK tee-shirt slightly wrinkled and riding up so that you could see the edge of his boxers peeping out from the top of his skinny jeans. As he Jack opened the door he saw Alex grinning at him. "Jack-O!" Alex stepped close to Jack giving him a hug and then chuckling "Wow Jack you look like crap…no offence but you look real messy" Alex smiled and ruffled Jack's hair.


Jack tried to hide the look of hurt that filled his eyes as Alex told him he looked bad. Did he really? No, he looked messy…in a cute way though, even Alex couldn't deny that and Alex was straight. Or at least that's what he'd been telling himself for the last five years, he had once thought he was bi but the guy he dated…he hadn't really had any feelings for the guy he'd been dating so he just assumed it had been a stage. "Gee, thanks Lex…" Jack mumbled as he let Alex in, oh he smelt so good…like nature, like a fire, like smoke. Wait smoke? Jack sniffed again and froze turning to look at Alex. "Lex you said you had quit." Jack said his voice full of hurt and disappointment how could Alex, his Lex lie to him? He could smell it faintly on Alex's skin, the smell of cigarettes, how come he hadn't noticed it when Alex had hugged him.


"I did....I just…I've been stressed out about the new album and stuff…speaking of which Ryan and Zack aren't coming their busy at the studio. So it's just you and me" Alex smiled, hopeful that he had managed to change the subject. Jack rolled his eyes and closed his front door. Holding out his hand he looked Alex straight in the eye.


"Alex Gaskarth, don't try to change the subject. Hand the cigarettes over." Jack said in his most commanding voice, he continued to look into Alex's brown puppy dog eyes relentlessly as they welled up with tears that slowly started to trickle down his cheek as he fell onto the couch, tossing the pack of cigarettes in Jack's direction.


Jack caught them with his right hand and threw them in the trash can at the door to his kitchen before sitting next to Alex on the couch. "Lex…I'm sorry, don't cry. I just don't want you to die. They'll kill you and you know that, and I can't loose you. You're my…" Jack wanted to Alex how he felt so bad but he just couldn't so he sighed and told Alex what he thought Alex would want to hear. "…best-friend" Alex just nodded and wiped the tears of his cheeks but they just kept coming, it had been so long since he had last cried and now with Jack there, he felt like he could cry and get rid of the stress with out being made fun of for crying. "Shh Lex…don't cry. Its all right" Jack said in an attempt to make Alex feel better, pulling Alex into a hug on his lap Jack wiped the tears from Alex's face and looked down at him, Alex looked cute even as the tears rolled down his cheeks making his eyes redden around the outside, his golden brown hair had some how managed to stay perfect the whole time, just little pieces falling into his face. Jack brushed it out of the way and leaned down until his face was centimeters away from Alex's, he could smell his sweat breath as Jack softly pressed his lips against Alex's kissing him gently. Alex was surprised at first but slowly as Jacks soft lips melted against his, Alex began to kiss back, and for Alex the kiss ended to soon as Jack whispered to Alex, his voice soft and loving "Lex? I have a confession to make. Actually two. Number one I'm gay, Number two I'm in love with you."


Alex chuckled, causing Jack to full away frowning. "What?" Jack asked trying to figure out what he had said that was so amusing.


"Nothing Jack-O, but I kinda figured from the kiss that you were gay. It's not like you've ever liked a girl or anything." Alex explained smiling "Oh and I have a confession too, I'm in love with you too Jack." And with that Alex leaned in kissing Jack deeply and passionately, pulling Jack into a kiss that they'd both remember for forever.